Monday, June 29, 2009


isn't Hollywood funny? When Farrah Facuet dies she is supposed to be what they talk about her on all the shows on the news and all. Then Michael Jackson dies and she is pushed to the later shows and becomes a million times less important according to what this little place deems. I think they vote this based on nut jobs but that is just my perspective. Right? Or do u feel something different. By the way for those of you who live in a sewer here are pictures of each of them and for Michael Jackson i will put two one before he bacame anut job and one of after and no it is not because i feel he is better than Farrah Facuet its just that well Farrah Facuet didn't change her whole entire face well anyways i guess it is just what I DEEM.

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Farrah Facuet

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Michael Jackson before and after

Well this sure is a funny little place and

R.I.P to them both and i will pray for thier families.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Friends, Horror Movies, and Chicken parm

Sleep over!! i had alot of fun with me and my bffs! We watched the messangers!! It was a really good movie! and i have to say Kristen Stewart did a pretty good job. She played a girl named Jessica and has a brother named ben. (who is the cutest baby i have ever seen!!) So anyways a couple of years ago something happened in thier house (da da daaaa) and of corse considering it was a horror movie it was not something good. But just so i do not ruin the ending all i will say is that it involves a boy and his mother. So anyways as usual a new family comes and the children see things and well in the end u find out the rest. So yeah sorry i have to go. I have to finish this really good book i am reading!!

Monday, June 22, 2009


Hi guys i am just soooooooooooooo happy!! Why? Well because it is summer! Which means no school! (well at least for now) but hey let me try to stay positive! Anyways I am going to the park adn play basketball then after that i have to go home and make rice for a party of my friends (i know pretty strange but i luv rice! lol). So i better get started!


Tuesday, June 16, 2009


somebody else round everyone else
watching ur back like you cant realax
trying to be cool
you look like a fool to me
tell me why you'd have to go and make things so complicated
i see the way ur
acting like ur somebody else gets me fustrated and life's like this...

man i LOVE THAT song!!!

anyways i luv this video and i think some parts are really funny anyways peace!!!

Sunday, June 14, 2009


I have a secret that i don't want my mother to know it happened today and well here i go:

Okay so my mom is usually really good with me except for today. It all started when i was hungry. I asked my mom if i could go to pathmark which we don't live too, too far away from and she said i could go but i was emailing a friend and well i finished at around 3:20 so i ask my mom what she wants me to buy then one of my sister puts my mom in a bad mood so then i start to ask my mom a question and she yells at me to get out of the house so i do and she told me to go to sub way which is also close to me but i don't..............
I walk about five blocks and try to go to McDonalds instead cause i was mad and i am walking till i realize my mom is calling i pick up and she apologizes and now i feel horrible. But then i realize this guy is FOLLOWING ME! so i freak out and run then he starts to run and then i walk and he walks then i enter white castle and lose him to proceed to mc donalds and i RUN. Man my friends r always talking about stalkers and now i know what that is and never want one again. Anwyways so i get to mcdonalds and it is PACKED so then i proceed to burger king and there i get a whopper with cheese, soda, fries, and mac and cheese. Then when the guy asked is it for here or to go? i say even though i know i am lying what if some of it is for here and some of it is to go? he says then aske for a bag and i am like okay.
While i was there i see a father and his two sons and his sons are trying to talk to their father and her says wait wait wait. and i am thinking, your kids are calling out to you! answer! but too late cuase i get my food and sit down and the first thing is c is a want to be girl with stuff pouring out her shirt!! what a crazy! but then i notice the father looks just like my uncle which makes me think of the lie i tell my mom and i feel horrible. so i eat then leave and walk around then decide to go to pathmark and guess who i see! the freak! but this time i walk right past him and he doesn't follow me so i am thinking that maybe he was going to the house right next to white castle! that made more sense so! so i start to buy the grocerries and then here avril lavgine when ur gone and start singing to it and i just think of this as my speacial day and what i did is done. so i walk home singing when your gone by avril lavigne with icream, milk, beef, tuna fish, and the recept.

Of course there is more to this story but that part is MY own little secret.

Saturday, June 13, 2009


OMG i had one heck of a day! Here i was just sitting in my apartment and then the sink starts flooding!!!!!! OMG i was sooooooooooo nervous!!!! but they r fixing it right now so no worries! anyways twitter is going pretty good for me i actually have more followers there than i do on my blog so yeah it is pretty good i have 12 followers and i had to block some of the people who wanted to follow so i would have had like twenty but i just attract the WRONG people! man u do not know how this feels!!!! man i got some pretty bad people want to follow my twiiter! but other than that i had a pretty good day! not much went on and if u want to check out my twitter it is:


thx to all those who check out my blog! Peace out!!! Rock and Roll for life! and all that good stuff!!


HI its me!! i know first i start posting way TOO much then i stop posting and now i am posting alot today well the reason is because i sore throat so i am just listening to music oh and yesterday i went over my bff's house yesterday her name is angelina! I love that girl she is super nice! Anyways so rgiht now i am listening to eye of the tiger! While my sisters are playing with this blow up beach ball (lame!!) lol actually it is really fun to play with i have to admit that! Yeah not really much going on other than yesterday. Oh the song just ended and now i am listening to taylor swift forever and always. Which reminds me that now Joe Jonas is writing a song about her!!! now he is just doing that for doing that!!!! NO OFFENSE TO ANY JOE JONAS FANS but, what an air head!!!! Is he serious anyways if you have a comment then write one. dont worry i take being told i am wrong very well. I mean i do have sisters!! Anyways, I have just finished this great book called what my mother doesn't know! it is a totally girly book but still pretty good and now i am reading a book called "Bad Girls Don't Die" and this is defienetly a good read!!! I am very surprised that it is a disney book. (now listening to thats what you get) Yeah cuz within the first few pages they like curs and isn't disney supposed to be all prim and proper? Well not anymore i guess you could say. Oh and sorry for the long post but don't worry i will try to wrap with in a few more sentences. oh and about the whole i will be a sage thing well i would if anyone would comment so anyone who is reading this please comment other than that well. Not much else so i guess i will stop bothering you with my life!


Oh wait before you go!!!!! i just remembered that school is almost out and i am soooooooooo bummed cause my sis is getting a job and now i am the family babysitter while i have a life to live i mean seriously!!!

okay bye


peace.jpg peace image by qettsevon

Friday, June 12, 2009


Hi guys just got a twitter! its rocknroll4ev! i guess i am still just not myself i had alot of fun today with my bf and yet i come home to this dreaded house and my heart just drops i feel dead i guess you could say. but i am still living. oh an guess what!!!!!!!!!! schools almost out!!! i am sooooooo excited! oh and i am getting a digital camera so expect lots of pics. Oh and i also learned today that there is a HUGE difference betweenbeing alone and being lonely i mean i can be in a room full of people and still i feel alone so with this experience i decided that this website will be for help and teaching of my sageness ☺☺♥☻☻so enjoy and please comment! ithink that i will be sending an email to everyone about my blog!!!!! anyways enjoy your life! stay young at heart! and to rap this up! Remain true to yourself because you are FOREVER YOUNG!!!!!!!

luv peace and taco grease!


Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Hi and then it slips out DID I MENTION I LOVE YOU

Hi guys just me again not much going on. depressed, troubled, just the basic stuff of my life. Though i have been noticing i have a tendency to space out a lot and when i do after i am done i blurt stuff out but then again what can u do? Right now i wish that i was just somewhere else of i didn't exist. I feel like so many people are watching me, and every move i make just traps me more. I am also having trouble with someone i mean it is just like we grew apart idk things happen, people change. which inspired me

what happened to us?
we r just siting here
no one speaks
can you even hear me?
Whens the last time you spoke to me
has it been in weeks
i cant handle this anymore
i guess

things change
people move on................. and things change
where did i go wrong
i thought i had everything..................... i needed right here
but things change
people come along
and ruin everything
but i guess things just change

i seen her and you at the mall
the way you look at her
do you notice me at all
i guess this is for the better
but nothings worse then the fall
but i guess

things change
people move on ...................... and things change
where did i go wrong
i thought i had everything i needed right here
but............................... things change
people come along
and ruin everything
but i guess things just change

i never imagined it
i never expected this
the way
that day
when you say
try to explain

things change
people move on and things change
where did i go wrong
i thought i had everything i needed right here
but things change
people come along
and ruin everything
but i guess things just change

yeah sounds suckesh but it is better when you know how to sing it and you know the insrtruments in the backround.

Anyways gtg bye!

Friday, June 5, 2009


hi nothing much just here and posting just out of boredom so...................................................................nothing much anyways bye!

Monday, June 1, 2009


hey guys sorry i have not posted in a while i have had a life to live. Anyways my trip to Boston was AWESOME!!! My friend name claire brought her camera and we took lots of pics i tried to post from her Dsi but no wi fi availiable 4 me :'( oh well anyways it was really cool! We even got to have a pool party! (that was where one of my freinds flashed) lol anyways gtg stupid book report due fri!

but before i go here is the second chpater of my book and if u forgot the first chapter it is still here look (and yes i am aware of the chessy dedication but i will fix it soon this is like a rough copy):

Book dedication:


            this is to all people who have ever been scared or afraid. Trust me it seems horrible now but it can not stay forever. All problems come to an end.


Chapter 1


I stand there and watch her walk down the aisle. She is wearing the most beautiful dress I have ever seen. I see the smile on her face. This is her big day. I wish that I could feel the happiness to but quite frankly the only way I would smile today is if a bomb hit this wedding. Cruel, yes but the truth hurts. All I can focus is on the man who is not my father standing there. Probably thinking that by this marriage I will some how feel close to him. But I will not. I refuse to. I can smile and be polite but I will never call him dad. No matter what. No I am not one of those kids who thinks that somehow their father will come back and we will be a family again because I do not stretch the truth. I can face reality. Like the day I found out the man who is not my father and who will never be my father (lets call him the man) along with my mother told me about their dirty little secret. How they were getting married. I had no idea until that day the man had said to me, “We have a surprise.” I never liked the man but surprise with my mother means something that has to do with me like the “surprise” she told me about when the man was coming over our house in 15 minutes. Of course I had no say just like I never do but when I first met the man he seemed okay. Though I soon found out his dirty little secret a secret that he even keeps from my mother. The man is an alcoholic. He thinks I don’t know. But I am not that blind unlike my mother who believes in love at first sight. Which would explain why they only dated 3 months before marriage. And now I am standing here as the priest says his words to bring these two people in holy matrimony. I think of when the man had his talk with me.

            It was after school and I guess my mother told him to pick me up because she was too much of a coward to tell me about their secret until I got home. I remember the talk in the car.  

            “You know Hayley….” He began, “your mother and I love each other.”

            “Uh huh.” Honestly I could care less.

            “Well we have a surprise for you.” He said in a soft voice thinking I would not be able to hear him.

            “What does you love have to do with surprising me?”

            “Well…” he responded, “you will be surprised how much of a change our love can make.” Then he decided to just keep quiet. Which I guess was smart cause I can trick people into giving me the information I want. Then when we got home I saw my mom she was sitting on the couch and told me, “Hayley how about you sit down.”

            “ Okay.” I responded. Then they just flat out said it well my mom did.

            “Honey we are getting married.”

            “Of course.” I thought to myself. Then I thought what I said outloud, “So when is the wedding?”

            “It is in two weeks.” She responded. To be honest I thought it was in one week considering how my mother always told me things right when they are about to happen. So here I am watching my mom and this dirt bag whom I am supposed to call my dad. Making out as they are supposedly now married. Now most daughters would be happy that their mother is just married but it just truly disgusts me. So as everyone claps I stand there.




            After the wedding my mother and the man (dirtbag) go on their honey moon and let me just say that to imagine that my mother is having s** with this dirtbag makes me sick I am forced to stay with my grandmother who barely evens knows where her own bathroom is. Which is good for me cause last time my mom went away I had to stay with my aunt Halbit which lives by talking! She talks to me as if I am answering one of those dating questionnaires. Geez all that woman did was talk! But my grandma is the total opposite she likes to keep to herself and only asks for the things she really needs. I sit in the small guest room and listen to Paramore when it rains and think of my horrible future. What will happen to me? What is my mom doing right now?

            I starts to sing along.

            “And when it rains. On this side of town it touches…everything. Just say it again and mean it. We don’t miss a thing you made yourself a bed at the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole) and convinced yourself that it’s not the reason you don’t see the sun anymore. And could you do it? Oh I, I never saw it coming. Oh, Oh I need an ending. So why can’t you stay just long enough to explain?”

            “Uggh…” I said to myself, “ I try to look at the good things about this I get to miss two weeks of school cause my grandmother lives at least 500 miles from school. I have the house basically to my self. I do not have to see the man.”

            But apparently I can not find enough reasons to even be the slightest bit happy so I lie there listening to my paramore.




I wake up from a nap I do not even know I took to find my granmother looking at me saying, “Hayley are you okay I came in here to find you on the bed and I was calling you and you would not answer!”

            “Grandma I was asleep.” I say calmly even though I am annoyed I figured that I caused her enough trouble by suposively pretending to be unconscious.

            “Oh okay dear. But next time just let me know when you are going to go to sleep okay?”

            “Sure Grandma.” Just to prove my whole bathroom point the woman is lost. I walk downstairs to get a snack. When the phone rings.

            “Hello.” I say in the coldest tone. Even I was scared.

            “Hey honey.” I hear my mother saying.

            “Oh hi mom.” I say.

            “Well I jus wanted to call to see if everyone is okay.”

            “Well everything is super doper mom..” and before I begin to say anything else all I hear my mom say is, “Oh stop it curt.” Then I hear the man say, “Oh come on Mary lets start….” Then all I hear is the dial tone. Which to me is perfectly fine because I don’t want to even know what they were doing.

            “Geez thanks for calling mom.” I think to myself sarcastically. Then  grab an apple and start walking up stairs. When I get up there I realize that I have not unpacked so I unpack and then out of boredom just start to go to bed.